Truly Me

The look in my eyes,

My pain evident,

My strength trapped,

Deep within,

Locked away,

By the pain,

By the doubt,

By the grief,

Guarded by questions,

Why?,

What?,

And when?,

Why won't they let me,

Be me,

What do they want,

From me,

When will I be free,

From them,

From the judgement,

Free to finally be,

Truly me.

Ouroboros

The cry of life,

The sound of death,

The knowledge of the night,

Wild yet tame,

The tame yearning to be wild,

The angel cries,

As the wolf howls,

The joker laughs,

As the scorpion strikes,

Life versus death,

Day versus night,

Questions soar,

Searching for answers,

A truth into the deep unknown,

Somethings thought to be true,

Turn out to be another lie,

A cry for help,

Rather than a lie,

Lost then found,

Then lost once again,

Thoughts and feelings,

All written down,

Some as random words,

Some clear as day,

Riddles of what lie within,

The unknown,

Made known,

Nothing ever finial,

Never set in stone,

Always changing,

Until time cease to be.

Note: Originally written on October 20, 2009

Fallen Tears from Grace

An angel cries in the distance,

Longing for a purpose and peace of mind,

Love to hate, hate to love,

Searching for a reason to live,

To find love,

To feel with every fiber free,

The angel's cries grow silent in the night,

Everything seem to have disappeared,

From mind and body,

Everything gone without a whisper,

Silence shattered by a cry,

A howl of pain, pain of honesty,

Honesty of a sad sad lie,

The denial burns deep,

Running from the tragic truth that follows,

Locked deep within,

Day after day, night after night,

The howls of pain eat at your soul,

Till once again you hear the sad cries of the angel,

The end is near, the angel's have fallen,

Fallen from above, fallen from grace,

Only to find, despite hoping,

It wasn't just a dream.

Note: Originally written on October 19, 2009

A Crying Soldier

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A tear rolls down the sad face of a crying soldier, not for he is about to die, but because he feel as though he has lost the one he loves. The sweet sweet hear of the brave honest soldier now being torn apart by the things he has to do to keep her safe. But what he doesn't know is that she being torn apart just as much as he. For she loves him dearly and doesn't want to keep suffering the worry. Fighting and fighting every waking moment longing to see again the one he loves.

Note: Originally written on October 19, 2009

Pain

I walk down this lonely road in a haze,

Yet I cross over it many times,

Just to feel the pain,

Just to feel it come to the surface,

And be real for everyone to see,

But why,

When I still hide it from everyone,

Why do I hide the tears,

Why do I hide the scars,

Why do I hide it at all,

I could end this pain forever,

With one dash down that lonely road,

But do I want that,

For the end to be here,

For there to be no more pain,

For everything to just be gone,

Lost to the darkness of death,

No,

I find comfort in the endless strides,

Across the lonely road,

Just scratching at the haze,

Picking at the pain in my heart,

The pain that makes me cry everyday,

Wishing for the end to be mine,

But honestly never wanting the pain to end,

Because that pain brought me you,

My love.

Be it What it Will

The sweet melody,

The sweet rhythm,

The sweet humming and drumming of the wind swim around me,

Dance around me,

Everything is right,

For once in my life everything is right,

Or so it seems,

And for that I am grateful,

Grateful whether it be truth or lie,

Right now it is,

And be it what it will.

The Truth Within

My heart aches from the lies,

Lies more to myself,

Rather than anyone else,

For years I've felt this pain,

Like a knife plunging deep within,

Rearing its ugly head when I pray,

Making everything seem wrong,

Wrong until I go somewhere and feel the breeze,

Or the sweet mist's lips against my cheek,

The earth's loving touch tickling my toes,

To release my spirit from these chains,

That lies within the fires of my heart.